Words can say only so much.

That makes all the difference.

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 23:40:51 +0800

That makes all the difference.

My smile might mean that you get to keep yours.

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 23:10:00 +0800

My smile might mean that you get to keep yours.

You never gave up on me

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 22:27:03 +0800

You never gave up on me

I only want to hear the thoughts from your heart.

Thu, 25 Oct 2012 21:30:00 +0800

I only want to hear the thoughts from your heart.

It’s hard to run from a feeling that haunts you every now and then. It’s painful to tell...

Mon, 15 Oct 2012 15:15:00 +0800

It’s hard to run from a feeling that haunts you every now and then. It’s painful to tell your heart that you don’t need it. You can keep on pretending that you are better to be alone, when in fact you feel so empty. But why take chances if you see no hope? Why try if there’s nothing to win for? Sometimes, it pays to wait. Never hurry. Let infatuation die a natural death, and give birth to true love when its time.

-Xy <3

Set me free

Fri, 12 Oct 2012 23:15:00 +0800

She was shaking as she tried to gather the guts to tell you what was going through her mind. “I-I,” she stammered, “I found someone new.” She finally said, her voice shaking toward the end. She couldn’t dare look you in the eye. “Please, set me free.”

You were standing there. It took what felt like years for you to finally comprehend. You couldn’t figure out what you did wrong. She fell out of love with you and in love with someone else. Questions start racing into your mind. Who is he? What kind of guy is he? What’s in him that’s not in me? Will she take care of her? Will he love her the way I do?

You decide to trust your girl. Who ever this guy was, she was happier with him than she was with you. “Okay,” was all you managed to say. You turned your back and walked away. She didn’t have to see the tears on your face.

A year had passed since that day, and you’re wondering how she is. She still pops into your mind frequently and your friends think it’s not healthy. But it seems like fate thinks differently.

She’s sitting alone in a table for two in your favorite coffee shop. Here is your chance to catch up with her. You tread forward, feeling your heart repeatedly jumping out from your chest. “Hey,” you say with a grin.

She turns to see you and manages to smile back. “Hey,” she replies and you feel your insides flutter. “Mind if I-” you motion for the empty chair in front of her. “No.” She shakes her head. “Not at all.” You settle yourself into the vacant seat.

“How’ve you been?” You both say at the same time. You both laugh. It feels good to hear her laugh again. It feels good to be around her again. “I’m recovering,” you say, not elaborating because you know that she knows what you mean. “You?” you ask. She shrugs. “Still single,” was her reply.

Your eyebrows furrow. You don’t understand. “But I thought you were seeing someone.”

She smiles but you could see the sadness in her eyes. “Yeah,” she says silently, “And I’d thought you’d fight for me.”

I sit here waiting for you to pass bySecretly hoping to catch your eyeI sit here lonesome as a bird...

Thu, 08 Mar 2012 22:13:20 +0800

I sit here waiting for you to pass by
Secretly hoping to catch your eye
I sit here lonesome as a bird without it’s mate
Waiting for someone to happen with my fate

I sit here trying to imagine
Just what if it were you and my
I sit here and laugh to myself
In my thoughts were you and I, no one else

I sit here and fake a smile
You were with her all the while
I sat there, waited for you to pass by
But it’s useless, somebody else is the apple of your eye

The mistake

Thu, 08 Mar 2012 22:11:24 +0800

I keep on denying as long as I can get through
I can’t accept the fact that I’ve fallen for you
Because I can’t risk a broken heart
Afraid I’ll end up hurting, I start running to the dark

I tripped and I fell, for I couldn’t see
But someone was always there with me
Someone who pulled me up whenever I stumbled
When I found out (all along) it was you, I trembled

The person from whom I ran away
Never did force me to stay
But he ran after me instead
Making sure I had a wonderful life ahead

But then I had to put on a smile
Can’t let you know I’m going through the hardest trial
You’ve treated me as your own little sister
Then I’ll have to treat you as my big brother

Just when I got over you, you knock my heart again
Now you treat me more than just a friend
I’ll keep on denying, tell them what is true
I won’t repeat the mistake of falling for you

I heard a faint beat at the center of my chest Faster and faster at the feel of your caress A...

Thu, 08 Mar 2012 22:07:20 +0800

I heard a faint beat at the center of my chest

Faster and faster at the feel of your caress

A famillar yet foreign feeling runs through my veins

Instinct tells me there’s less to lose and more to gain

Then all the love songs of the radio started making sense

The tune weirdly made my heart dance

every line, stanza, chorus and refrain

Made me think of you again and again

yet I’m scared of what might happen

I’m afraid to end up crying

‘cause they say no matter how ecstatic you feel

There’ll be pain, there’s no denying

Remind me again, how much is to gain?

How less will I lose?

For I am but a girl who’s been waiting for love to happen.

You and I is where my story began.

I’m right back where I started Before I began loving you Never thought we’d be...

Thu, 08 Mar 2012 22:04:52 +0800

I’m right back where I started

Before I began loving you

Never thought we’d be parted

That there were so many things I never knew

I’m back to flying solo

Back to an open heart

It’s time for me to click restart

You have to understand, I have to let go

It’s time for me to walk away

from the boy I once knew

cause he never met me half-way

so it’s time to start anew

On a monochromatic board, two sides are found the tension so high, you hear hearts pound figures of...

Thu, 08 Mar 2012 22:03:53 +0800

On a monochromatic board, two sides are found

the tension so high, you hear hearts pound

figures of black and shadows of white

kings, dukes, pons, queens and knights

We go through the rules, white goes first

but at the circumstance, the roles are reversed

curiousity naturally forces you to ask me why

let me tell the story which started on the month before July

You promised.

Thu, 08 Mar 2012 22:03:05 +0800

You promised you would never leave
That one cold winter’s eve
But these aching pains in my heart
were caused by the fact that you and I were always apart

What you said, you never meant
which in my heart left a dent
I never would’ve fallen, if you weren’t standing on the way
And I wouldn’t be trying to get over you till this very day

I’ll admit that I miss you like hell
but I’ll stand up right where I fell
I’ll tell you this and you’ll hear it just this once
so listen close, listen hard, I love you and you’re everything I want

I see you across the room, seemingly stealing a glance Unspoken feelings that channel through lead...

Thu, 08 Mar 2012 22:00:30 +0800

I see you across the room, seemingly stealing a glance

Unspoken feelings that channel through lead me to a trance

You step forward and extend your hand as you ask me for a dance

I take your open palm as our story starts to bloom into a new romance

And though the speakers were silent, I heard music all around

My life was at perfect rythm, even though there was no sound

Waltzing through the room with only the melody of our hearts abound

And I was sure that this was a love that would never run down

And no, this is not a dream as everything seems so real

A tingly feeling that fills from my head to the tip of heels

These are moments that really show me how I really feel

You’re the only true thing in a world so surreal

My greatest mistake was when I let fear overcome me It’s too late now, to tell you...

Thu, 08 Mar 2012 21:26:34 +0800

My greatest mistake was when I let fear overcome me

It’s too late now, to tell you what’s in my heart

And I’m shaking from the insides and I don’t even know why

And I have a feeling this will cost me my sanity

Because it’s only beginning to tear me apart

I have to do it, but I don’to know how to say goodbye

When the music fades and the world becomes pitch dark, you find yourself crying on your knees. No...

Sat, 25 Feb 2012 14:40:00 +0800

When the music fades and the world becomes pitch dark,

you find yourself crying on your knees.

No one cares, you think. No one ever will.

You can barely see through your tears

when you write the final words, “goodbye”

You put your pen down and take away the life that was once yours.

And when the morning comes, your mother sees you bathing in your own blood.

Looking into your eyes that have lost their spark.

Your mother screams; gone are the dreams, the hopes, all she wanted you to be.

A resonating sound surrounds the house; haunting, desperate and shrill.

Your father runs in, reality has become his greatest fear.

Questions in their heads, hoping this was but a lie.

Your father scampers, starts searching all the drawers.

He picks up the phone, dials 911, tears only beginning to flood.

The mornings bright and young, people hear the morning lark.

Too bad you’re no longer here, it would have been beautiful to see.

Your life is long gone, but the pain lives on still.

This lost too much of a shock, all too queer.

They have to start again, but they don’t know how to try.

No one cares, you thought. You were just so sure.

Your best friend stands by your coffin, pale and obscure.

She’d have thought you’d told her what you were to do.

She’d have thought you knew that she loved you.

She’d have thought she’d know if there was something wrong.

You didn’t tell her, though. You didn’t tell her you were hurting.

You thought she had too much to handle.

You kept your thoughts to yourself, they’re better in there.

Your mother sits, secluded from the crowd. She no longer knew how to endure

the pain that came with losing her reason to live, you.

Your father, just as clueless, your family, too.

And when the choir sings their final song,

accompanied by a single six-string.

In silence, everyone holds up a candle,

In hope you’d be safe somewhere.

I blame myself for not being there when you needed me most.

I forgot to tell you I love you. And now I never will.

You will never hear the words that remain unsaid.

You will never hear them for you are dead.

And all the world will love you still.

Even though your only as real as a ghost.

Fri, 24 Feb 2012 18:57:00 +0800

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They all say, “Look at her, that is she The girl most brave, The strongest one, by far, She...

Sun, 22 Jan 2012 17:35:00 +0800

They all say, “Look at her, that is she

The girl most brave,

The strongest one, by far,

She stands unwavering, firm on the ground

Despite the storm

She’s standing there

Without aid.”

They’ll never know, They failed to see

That I am standing on my grave

As I watch my dying star

My blood inside barely pounds

I do stand firm on my platform

I take my final breath and swear

It was the end of my charade.

Tue, 03 Jan 2012 16:57:00 +0800